Tacos! From A Window!
First Time Greenbelting.
Swimming With A Foot Attacking Fish.
Hiking.
Uninsured Rock Climbing.
Mediterranean Sunset Dinner.
Firefly!
The State.
To Close: Yes.
Take Away: Earth Day Success!
Dress Photo To Come: Striped Swimsuit Pull-Over Dress
Jamison Arrives!
Delightful Rehearsal With The Better Half.
Groceries!
Cooking!
Friends!
Laughs. So. Many. Laughs.
Pictures. So. Many. Pictures.
Delicious Drinks And The Music of Lex Land.
Half Day With Free Barbeque.
Sugarmamas Stop.
Adorable Cupcake Party.
Swimming. With Real Ducks!
Hillside Chats About Life And Whales.
Fancy Pants! Fancy Fun Improv!
Black Bean Burger And Juice!*
To Close: Fancy-oke!
Today is the first day of my Dress A Day project so I wanted to take a moment to explain how this crazy thing came to be. I have been reading a book that discusses gaining confidence. One of the things that the book recommends is going through your wardrobe and getting rid of anything that makes you feel less than fabulous. What a simple and glorious concept. I tried on almost all of my closet and got rid off a good percentage of my clothes. It was really quite liberating and I have really enjoyed dressing only in things that I find fabulous. I have always loved dresses. As a little girl I only wanted to wear dresses, as I grew up I fully embraced the functionality of pants and while dresses have always held a soft spot in my heart I can't say that I wear them on a regular basis. So I thought, what if I only wore dresses for a month? What if I wore all of my dresses one after the other? I resolved to do just that.
This year has been a year of great change and growth for me and we're only a third of the way in. Part of this growth and change has lead me to spend a lot of time with old friends, making new friends, and enjoying every moment of both. The fact that I plan on continuing doing these things paired with the fact that I will be wearing dresses for more than a month it only seemed natural to pair these things together on a grander scale. My mind was instantly in a flurry of all of the possible combinations of outings, people, and dress choices. It makes me giddy, really. So, I did it. I got on Facebook and created an event that lasts longer than a month and invited people in the Austin area with whom I'd like to spend time with.
All of this being said, I feel like I'm doing a gigantic trust fall. I basically told over a hundred people that I want to wear a dress and hang out with them. That is just a little ridiculous. However, I am ridiculous and must embrace and follow the ridiculous.
I am still being crashed upon with waves of creativity. This afternoon I was hit with an inspiration for a year long, very personal, but fun project. I was looking for a journal to write my first note on and stummbled upon a journal from a college class that had a hand written dictation of a conversation I had recorded with my grandfather just a couple of years before he passed away. I just melted. The timing was beautiful as I was listening to a Norah Jones cover of a Patsy Cline song. My grandfather loved Patsy Cline.
In the past 5 years I have lost four very special people, all within a year and a half period. I am quite the sentimentalist with the memory of an elephant (particularly when it comes to people I care about). This fact, mixed with things moving about in the universe brings me occassional moments of connection with people that I have loved and lost. I cherish these moments so much and they always surprise me when they come.
Todays moment struck me even more so. Here I was chasing my creativity, beyond my doubts, and then I stumble into this interview. Reading the interview I could hear his voice in my head, his enunciation, his diction and the way he expressed things he found interesting. It was like he was right here with me. I felt like it was a further encouragement from the universe to continue on with what I'm doing.
I plan to share some exceprts from the interview at some point because I love it so much and think there are things worth sharing with the world. This was my grandfathers favorite Patsy Cline song.
Last night I had the inspiration arise to paint. I haven't painted in years. I have drawn and other artistic things but I have not pushed myself to follow the initial excitement of a project. While I was inspired to paint I had no idea what I wanted/needed to paint, which initially scared me. None the less, I pulled out the canvas and the paint and sat down on my living room floor and had a little faith in myself. This is what came out. A dark murky path that seemingly ends into tall mysterious feathery grass beyond the grass is a firey heart in a textured yellow sky. I had to turn of my judgements for several hours to create this and when it was finished I felt like I had run an emotional marathon.
I feel that this painting has been living inside of me for quite sometime in some way or another just waiting to spill out. Just waiting for me to have just enough faith. At this point in my life I have found myself on the murky path and I'm heading into the tall feathery grass in search of the fire within my heart on so many levels.
The grass is alluring yet unknown but the heart must be reached to light the sky. So onward I go through the tall feathery grass of life.
I'm in love with this song right now because it takes me back to ACL 2011. We hadn't seen rain in quite some time but it was cloudy and I carried a little hope in my heart that maybe it would rain. It rained. It began to rain during this song. I was wearing a blue cotton sundress and I soaked up the drops through every inch of the dress and my skin. My spirit was refreshed. It was like a baptismal of sorts. A soul refreshing.
I have come to a turning point in my life. A crossroads. A point where I must have faith in myself or drown. I find myself in the throws of doubt from time to time but mostly I find myself exhilirated and hopeful. There's so much. I just have to allow myself to have it.